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Thanks for visiting my personal blog! Due to a strange backend tech disaster, the old version of this site was completely lost. This is the primary digital hub of my writing online — a true passion project with no timelines or external pressure — so I’ll be slowly but surely (I mean, we are in the midst of a global pandemic) piecing together the newest iteration of this site. Please “pardon the dust” as we undergo construction here! Thank you for your patience & for holding space for great imperfection 😀 PS – yes, all the old…

journeying with peonies

Growing up at my parents’ house in Oak Brook, my absolute favorite part of each spring was the short burst of peony blossoms from the three bushes we had (they came with the house; my parents weren’t into gardening). Each of these bushes had a different color — one pink like this picture, one white, and one white but dipped in pink. 😍 The last year we lived there, my parents hired these roofers to redo the roof as we prepared to sell the house. To my horror, they worked exactly during that two-week pocket of time where the peonies…

on lonely spammers throwing spaghetti on the wall, part 2

I reference a lot of Human Design in this post. Eventually I will write more about HD and will link it here for you, but if you are new to it right now, it’s okay not to know.  [Note: I’ve masked this guy’s actual photo with an egg face to protect the guilty.] My g-center (identity) in my chart is undefined, so how I show up can be pretty inconsistent and span a full spectrum of ways. I often experiment with new experiences, especially when it involves new people. As a 5/1, I…

on lonely spammers throwing spaghetti on the wall, part 1

This energy has been in my field a lot lately, so buckle in for storytime. 😂  [Names & identifying factors have been changed/hidden to protect the guilty besides me & mine.] On Saturday, some friends came over for a li’l half-birthday/birthday gathering in my backyard.* It had been raining that day, but we managed to cozy up with our propane heaters, blankets, yummies, and fun conversation. At one point, we had a good laugh at me saying, “Remember when the Internet was new?”  I’d said it because I had an anecdote about when we were in…

[a year in review] 2020 edition, part 2: slowing tf down

Above all the things that I examined within the year 2020, perhaps one of the most important themes for me was to slow the fuck down and deepen. You may or may not know that when I was a late teen I sustained a significant traumatic brain injury — a stroke that paralyzed the entire left half of my body for a month. As of this writing, it’s been over 17 years and my nervous system is still healing. So I’ve been somewhat “forced” to slow down due to my physiology, and it took me every second since that…

[a year in review] 2020 edition, part 1

Recently, I posted this to Instagram; it’ll be a launchpad for an exploration I’ve been circling for a while now: Exactly one year ago today we took a trip to Europe. ✈️ We’d spend a brief weekend visiting with friends in Munich & take a train up to Gdańsk, Poland for a week . . . 🥀 We didn’t anticipate what would be taking place in northern Italy while we were off in Poland, so with big question marks in our minds we boarded our planes to Florence, just in time for the nationwide lockdown. 😷 It was one of the…

the excitement of staying in

Anthony and I have been together for a little over a decade, now (😮), and since each year is pretty backloaded with special occasions: Anthony’s birthday (August) Hallowe’en (which we make a big deal of cuz I LOVE costumes & trick or treat) Both my parents’ birthdays & Anthony’s dad’s birthday (October) My birthday (November) “THE HOLIDAYS” (December & early January) && our anniversary (January) Valentine’s Day can sometimes feel like 😳😳😳 from all the festivities. But we’re both Human Design generators (he’s an…